Kind Words

Today someone told me something kind.

And it hit me really hard, like I knew they were telling the truth.

I hope I can sometimes help people feel as loved as this single sentence made me feel.

I just think that kindness is the best.

People Love

Life has not been perfect, but, oh, has it been good!

Yesterday I had a new experience. It was kind of embarrassing and funny all in one. And, sorry, but I am not going to be specific about it right now. But I think the best thing that I learned from it was how very kind people can be. I just really love people, and I think I lost that love for a little while. Now that I have it back though, I just want to spread the joy and love! I want to serve and be kind.

I have wonderful friends, and I hope they feel loved. I know I can be a better friend, and I am working on that.

The Move and Provo Food

I moved!

I still visit Provo a lot though (um, every week). This was probably the smoothest move I have ever made in my life! I loved that! I'm enjoying my time at home, but there are definitely things that I miss about Provo, but it's not like it's that far. Home is good, and it's nice to spend more time with my family.

One thing that I am missing about Provo is some of the food. Some people probably don't know, but Provo actually has some really good local restaurants. I haven't even been to all of the ones I want to go to. Also, roommate Jordan and I love snow cones. We have been enjoying our snow cones a lot this summer, and we have our favorite stands. Number one is the stand by Day's Market on Canyon Road. However, I recently learned that there is a new snow cone stand where they make their own syrups from scratch and that is more natural! I think I'm going to try it tomorrow.

I'm excited to try some new restaurants that I've seen around home.

Life is good.

Today I talked to one of those people that make you feel like you're doing nothing with your life. Do you know who I mean? They are wonderful people, and I love them, but they are just so amazing and do so much with their lives that you just feel, uh, lazy. And I just don't understand how they do it. How do they have the time or the money or the energy to make so many things happen? I want to be amazing like that. I want to make the most of my life. Why can't I seem to make it happen?

Let's see, oh yeah, well, for some reason I have had trouble committing to things; that kind of is a problem when you want to do something with your life or commit to learning or doing something.
Also, having too many plans or options for plans really stresses me out. And I can usually manage stressful situations, but it's hard for me to want to seek them.
Both of these things kind of come from me not wanting to miss anything. What if I have committed to go help at something, and then a friend calls and wants to do something. I really value relationships, so that feels more important to me most of the time, and I know that I'm allowed to say no, and I know it shouldn't be hard, but it is.
There are probably other things too, like, I'm probably just being lazy, and I feel like the only solution to that is just to stop.

So, what is my plan now? Maybe I'll just try committing to one amazing thing. One little amazing thing. I can do that, right? Now I just have to decide what. And honestly, I'm really leaning toward becoming better at the piano, especially since I'll be home for the summer. This will take some pondering.

Thanks crazy cool person who makes me feel lazy! Maybe I'll be a better me because of you.

Yesterday, I was working from home. I was sitting at my desk in my bedroom, and unfortunately, I was really mad at some people. And I really wanted to let it go. I wanted to forgive and be happy and love. But it just was not happening. I was mad. I felt that they had wronged me and I felt hurt.

I was listening to my Les Miserables pandora station, and I was singing along and loving it, but some songs that were coming on were about people being angry, and I just couldn't handle any more anger, so I scrolled through my many pandora stations to look for something a little more peaceful. I decided on my Mormon Tabernacle Choir station. Now, I love being at church and singing hymns, a whole lot, but honestly, sometimes listening to church-type songs is not the most exciting thing to me. I love the gospel and I love music, but I guess I'm just picky about what music I like to listen to.

However, listening to church music was really wonderful this time. I had been working for a few hours with this music playing, and I suddenly realized that the music had really brought the spirit into my room. I felt so much peace and hope. And although I still felt mad, I felt like I would be able to forgive. I started looking at the situation that had upset me more objectively. It was really a wonderful thing.

I guess I just wanted to say that music about Christ and his life and his gospel and about things that are uplifting can really bring the spirit. I know it.

If you have any questions about what I believe, visit the http://mormon.org/ website. I love it!