Thanksgiving!

Thanksgiving is next week, and I'm really excited! I am going to California, and it's going to be fun. I was thinking today about how Thanksgiving is about giving thanks, obviously, and so I was thinking about what I'm thankful for. This is going to be a really long list-
gospel, scriptures, family, friends, roommates, weather (clouds, rain, snow, beautifully bleak days, sunshine, etc.), everything about church, people, President Monson, all of the general authorities, my ward, BYU, football, sports, events, deliciousness (in food-such as steak, lucky charms, cookies, thanksgiving food, etc.), delicious smells, USA, country music, any good music, books, eyes, my home, my apartment, air conditioning and heating, my bed, the great opportunities that I've had, lotion, toothpaste, contacts, movies, the opportunity to help people, showers, work, my professors, accents, the fact that everyone is different, language, long talks, my newfound ability to be outgoing, basically everything.

Oh man, I know I've forgotten so much. Some of those I could go on and on about too: especially my family, friends, and roommates. I am just so thankful for every single person I know. They are wonderful for each of their own reasons.

People

Oh man, I love my friends. They are so funny. I am so glad I have my friends. People are so great, sometimes they are really dumb, but that is usually funny. I just love people.

"Everybody Stumbles Sometimes"

This last week was not so wonderful. I was moody and not at my nicest. I was a bad employee, and student, and felt like a bad friend. I was kind of selfish. I am glad the week is over and I can have a fresh start. Last night I was reading in my scriptures Galatians 5 and 6. I remembered that if I am not so selfish, I end up being much happier. I hope to be less selfish this coming week and be better in doing what I should.
I learned some random things this week though: I learned that I love showering at random times in the middle of the day; I learned about some of my friends; and I learned that I am really bad at committing to things. I realized that some people really do like me as a person - that was happy. Sometimes I just see how I'm so imperfect and I don't understand how people can like me. I also realized that even though right now might not be the happiest time for me, it is preparing me for the future and helping me become a better person. I can still have a positive attitude and help others have joy. I love making other people happy and serving people. Sometimes I think I'm really awkward and worry that my friends think I'm so weird because I do random things like write nice notes and take cookies. I really enjoy it though and I hope that my friends like it. I hope that once in a while, I help someone have a better day.

Sometimes you've just gotta talk

This whole week I've felt like I just have so much to say, and I want to hear other people's opinions too. However, there aren't people around all the time to talk to. Right now I just really miss the way it was with some of my old best friends. I felt like I could call them and talk to them at just about any time or go to their houses just to talk. I felt like it didn't matter what I said, because they would still like me and be my friends. I could be myself. I feel like right now I don't have friends that I can do that with. I do have really close friends, but they are busy. I have had a lot of good conversations this week too. I don't know, I guess I just really want to talk and get to know more about people. I shouldn't be complaining though. I have wonderful friends, family, and roommates - with most of those categories overlapping. I have a lot to be grateful for because people really are amazing and I am so blessed.