I am very excited for this new year. 2010 was a difficult year for me, but as I have been thinking about it, it was also an incredible year. I did so much: graduated from BYU, made new friends, strengthened many friendships, enjoyed nature, and learned so much. Some of my plans for 2011 are to get a job, take the GRE, apply to get my Masters in Library Science degree, exercise every day, help someone every day in some way, take more time to just think, and to take more time to look for the beauty in the world.
At first I was reluctant to make any goals; my plans have been so easily changed lately, but I have become content with the fact that things don't have to go exactly as planned. I just need to grow and learn and do what is right. My goals will help put me in the right direction, but if they change, I can adjust them or make new goals. This is a big step for me because I am a perfectionist. I tend to want things to go exactly "perfect," but I've been realizing more and more that my version of perfect is not necessarily what will help me or those around me the most. Heavenly Father knows what he is doing. He knows me and is helping me every step of the way.
I have been feeling so blessed recently. As many know, I do not have a job right now, and I haven't really had a job since August. It's been pretty easy to get discouraged because I don't like having nothing to do, I don't like job hunting, and money is tight. However, it has truly become apparent that Heavenly Father is watching out for me. At the beginning of last week, I was feeling pretty down, but then there were a flood of friends sending me encouragement through their kind words. I also have had so many friends inviting to share their food with me, which is incredibly helpful to my budget. Some of these friends I haven't even talked to much in the last year, but I am so happy to be spending time with and talking to them. I have been able to hear things that are exactly what will heal my worried heart. I have felt so much motivation to accomplish more than I had been accomplishing. Despite the hard parts, life is truly wonderful. I am so grateful for my friends, this beautiful earth, and just everything! I am incredibly blessed. I hope that I can share the love that I have been feeling with everyone around me.
