Wednesday, October 23, 2013

I am enough

My friend posted this TED talk on facebook. The Power of Vulnerability

I just watched this, so I'm still processing, but I loved it, and I think everyone should watch it! Man did I need to hear that. I am definitely guilty of trying to numb my vulnerable feelings, but I also try not to. I just loved this talk, and I want to live more wholeheartedly. I definitely want to think about this and also come back to listen to it.


Tuesday, October 15, 2013

Harry Potter Halloween Love

I LOVE Harry Potter. This is a fact.

I'm thinking that I might be Luna for Halloween.



I think I just need a blonde wig and some of those spectacular specs. I'm not that big on dressing up. I think it's fun, but it makes me self conscious. But I hope this costume works out! Unless I come up with something else awesome. :)

Wednesday, October 9, 2013

Possibly Stressed

I might possibly be stressed out.

I think it's weird that I'm stressed today when I wasn't really stressed yesterday, even though not much is different.

I think certain things just came to my attention today. For example, I realized that I can register for Winter semester classes in just a week and a half. I went to look at what's available, and I'm not sure how I'm going to make things work. If anyone has any good ideas for me for language learning, help me out. Some things at work also caused me stress. My performance review for the year is on Friday. I recently changed managers, and I don't necessarily feel like the month where I've had my new manager has been the best reflection of my year as a whole. However, my new manager is really nice, so it should be ok. Performance reviews just make me nervous though. Also, my life is busy. Work or school from 8 to 6 and then homework and eating and my attempts at maintaining a social life afterwards make me quite busy. I guess it's time to go back to the day by day method, while also planning ahead where I can. I can do this!

Friday, October 4, 2013

Compliments

I know. Two posts in two days. It's crazy! I've just been feeling very reflective this week.

So, I'm a big complimenter. I have been for years. I just have all these thoughts about people in my head about how wonderful and amazing and talented they are. I also feel like these thoughts don't really do me any good, just sitting there in my brain, so I might as well share them! I know that sometimes people think that since I compliment so much, the compliments don't mean as much. And people can think that and it could be true, but I definitely mean what I say. I think sometimes people also think I compliment so that I can get something. I can't say that's 100% wrong because sometimes I share my compliments with people because I think they are awesome, and I want to be their friend. However, the compliments are sincere.

So, it really amazes me how often I'll tell someone how great I think they are, and they respond by saying something about how they really needed to hear that. It doesn't always happen, and sometimes people say it to be nice, I think, but it happens. A lot of times these people are people who look and act like life is going great. And maybe overall it is, but there are times when kind words from a friend can really make things better. I know that's true for me. Yesterday was feeling kind of rough, and a friend texted me some nice texts, and it made my night feel much better!

I'm not posting this to try to make myself sound all good or anything. I could be such a better person than I am. I just felt like I should write about this: how kind words can really be helpful and how sometimes people are having a harder time than you realize.

Sometimes I've given compliments and then people tell me that I'm going to contribute to an overinflated ego or something. And I do believe that humility is a good thing, but, at least for me, I feel like the world pulls people down enough. I'd rather build people up.


This is not related, but General Conference is this weekend, and I can't remember the last time I was this excited for it! I am seriously so excited to hear the words of the prophet and to learn more about the gospel. I am so excited to learn more of Christ. It's going to be the best weekend!

Thursday, October 3, 2013

Encounters

Someone has been on my mind a lot this week. Someone who used to be a best friend. And a song just came on that we both loved. I have been wondering if he's doing well and whether he's been able to overcome some struggles he had and whether he is happy. I hope he is. I've been thinking about how I'm different from how I was then. And also how I'm the same. But I also have been thinking about how that friendship changed me. I'm sure I can't see it all, but I can see some of the change. And I hope that I had a positive influence on his life.

I don't think everyone will agree with me, but I feel like every single person we encounter, whether for half a second or 80 years, makes an impact. I feel like there is so much I can do to help others. I sometimes feel like I need to be positive 24/7 so that I can help others feel happy, but I don't think that is actually the case. I think I need to be true to myself in both the stressful, unhappy times and the peaceful, happy times.

So I'm doing the best I can in my lovely life. And I hope that helps.